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i looked into the mirror. wow.. what happened to me.. my face looked so pale.. my eyes looked so small.. on top of all.. i just looked so frail suddenly.

today had flick outing.. we met earlier to eat lunch.. so there were me.. fujing.. wanling.. wilbur.. wilbur's sis and his friend.. went NYDC to eat.. chatted abit.. haha wilbur was so funny.. kept probing me about some stuffs.. had a nice talk with everybody.. his sis was asking if wilbur is very quiet during OG meetings.. haha yah i think he is quiet.. but he will open up if u approach him.. he's just a very decent chap.. :) then we also talked abt the times when we teased fujing n wilbur.. lol.. well those were good old days..

then we went city hall to meet the rest again.. n walked to marina sq... after realising we had nth to do there.. we walked back to citylink to have high tea (gosh we just ate) that time our group consisted of me.. wanling.. fujing.. simin and yinting.. then alaric came too.. we ate n chatted.. long time no see liao so had some catching ups with each other.. :) then alaric left.. janice came shortly.. and then wanling n yinting left.. haha.. the rest of us went orchard to meet gary and meiqi for dinner ( wah lau eh we were eating the whole day la ).. aww i wanted to meet meiqi one! but i must go liao n she's not there yet.. anyway her joke was really OBSCENE man! haha.. nvm even if i dont see her today.. i'll still see her in TJ.. hehe. so not to worry. ^_-

sux.. my mum threw away my vj stuff. dunno why both dad n mum raised their voice at me today. sis always says i'm damn rude etc etc. wth? nowadays they always like to shout at me.. isn't my life messy enough? they didn't even console me when i'm depressed. worse still pour cold water on me. suddenly i wonder if i really belong to the family or not. mum is like so not pleased with me loh. she hates to see me go out. but what can i do?? she scolds me for using computer.. scolds me for going out.. scolds me for snatching her tv.. what am i supposed to do then??? stone?? i need fresh air. cooping myself up at home all the time will simply lead to me committing suicide. my life so miserable.. everything seems so harsh for me now. couldn't help but to break down n cry. my eyes hurt now.. cant even open my eyes properly.. eyesight so blur..

i have problems in all aspects of life except for friendship.. chen ting sounded as bad as i do.. we can only hug each other n cry.. encourage each other.. telling each other to move on.. luckily i have so many good friends there for me.. some pple whom i nv talk to for ages somehow sensed tt i'm in trouble and came to console me.. thanks li`en.. =) and all s64 pals + rocher pals.. i won't survive without confiding in u guys.. thanx alot =)

da gong zhu said xiao gong zhu's eyebags look bad.. she said xiao gong zhu looks very haggard now.. haiz. xiao gong zhu is not happy.. she is pathetic. i really wonder how some pple can bear to hurt others.. especially when they told them they have fragile hearts already. my heart is broken.. once again.. and so it sets me thinking if i did anything horrible in my past life.. that i have to suffer some kind of a retribution now.. BUT i strongly believe that if u do something evil, u'll get your just desserts one day. there will be this day. somebody will punish the wicked pple for sure.. okay enough said. i feel so sick now.. so traumatised.. i don't know how long i must stay on like this.. but i really can't stand it anymore.. i'm falling apart.. collapsing.. pull myself together..? easier said than done.. but i'll try my best..

somebody.. take me away..

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